Well its been a while since i did this but i guess i can tell you a few things that have been happeneing in the life of sinkers. Today i finished my first year of TAFE yyyaaaaayyyyyyy!!!!!!! at the start of the year i had no idea what i was going to do and i found myself going to TAFE and doing the massage therapy course and it has been so much fun. The people i have met, the friends i have made and the stuff i have learnt has just been awesome. So now i have 2 months off and its all starts again.

Alisha and i have been going great it will be 8 months next thursday that we have been together and everyday i thank God that i have found her, she is the greatest person that i have met and i love her with all my heart aaawwwwwhhhhh. Nah but serious she has made me the happiest person in the world and i don't know what i would do without her in my life.

Since i have finished Tafe its time to get a job for the holidays and i have already got one, Mark Penna gave me a job earlier in the year working with him and now that he is starting work on our church im working there all the holidays hopefully helping out on the renervations which would be awesome.

Also a couple of weeks ago Alisha and I sat down and had a talk about queensland and if we are ready to go, and we decided that we were going to put it off for a year. Reasons being: i really want to finish my course so i can get a job if we move up their and its something that i really want to finish. Also Alisha has just started her job at CSA and she can't get a transfer till she works 1 year so that works out perfectly and it also gives me time to play another season of football and put some more weight on, which i really need to do and also it gives more time to save up more money.

Well thats about it thats happened in the past couple of weeks cya.

5 days to go till i see my baby again

Today was a good day i had a very good sleep in which was nice but then i woke up to watch 7th Heaven which is a show on Fox8 very cool. Then i got ready because i had to go into tafe for a couple of hours so my friend ian and i could work out how to do this Law assignment that we have due next thursday. Its really hard and it takes alot of patience and concentration that i don't have, we were given a story about 7 people who work in a massage clinic and they have all done something wrong and are going to be sued and we have to act as lawyers and tell them what there are getting sued for and other things it takes a long time so that sucks.

I had baseball training tonight which is always lots of fun, hanging out with my brother more has been cool. We haven't been able to do that alot since he got married and had Josh so its been good to have fun with him playing baseball, and the boys are fun to be around.

I got an email from Alisha last night she said that she is having fun she gets to vanuatu tomorrow so hopefully she can have more fun and do some things that are cool and buy me some really cool stuff. I miss her so much and can't wait for her to come.

Well thats about it bye

4 down 6 to go till i see my baby again

Today was a lot better then the previous days i had my first day back at tafe and it was good to be back with everyone and finding out what they have been doing on their holidays. In practical we learnt about lymphatic drainage as an alternative to swedish massage which was very interesting finding out that there are other ways to treat your patients to do different things. I also got back my first mid semester exam, i passed which was good i would have liked my mark to be a bit higher but i will take a pass thats all i need to stay in the course.

Tonight at bibile study we talked about the awesome power that God has on the world, he is all powerful an all knowing a God who created and rules over the heavens and the earth and he has the power to take it all away from us. We also talked about how idols and other things in our lives can take over from God and be used as a comfort or support other then God and it was a great challenge that we should always put God first and trust in him in everything that we do because he is in control of everything and i think that i awesome.

I still miss my baby Alisha so much i can't wait for her to come home, i can't stop thinking about her and what she is doing. It doesn't help when the only way we can speak to eachother is she has to call me but i suppose she can't because the satelite is not working so hopefully they can get that fixed soon so i can talk to her.

well till 2moro bye night world

3 down 7 to go till i see my baby again

Once again a very non-eventful day, i helped my mum steam the wall paper off my kitchen ceiling so my dad can paint it on the weekend, my mum wants to change the kitchen around so it look more modern which i think it needs. That was a very painful experience holding a very hot tool that dripped alot of boiling hot water on the arm that you were holding it with but it had to be done and was completed in 2 hours. Also my little nephew Joshua made a visit to my humble palace, his parents were at work today so we had the honor of his presence. He is so funny i don't know where he gets it from but he is the coolest 2 year old in the world, we had to watch Mary Poppings about 2 times because thats the only thing he likes to watch on tv, he played outside with my mums washing basket and i put him in the pool and he kicked around. It was great fun.

Other then that nothing else has happened i count the days till my baby comes home i miss her so much, Tafe starts again tomorrow so hopefully that can destract me from thinking about her so i don't go crazy. Also i will get my results back from 1 of my mid semester exams that i took before the holidays so im excited to see what i got.

oh well till tomorrow bye for now.

2 down 8 to go till i see my baby again

Today was a very non-eventful day, watched the dvds that Alisha gave me (Coach Carter and Any Given Sunday) so that took up half the day and then the rest of the day i watched more tv e.g old Blue Heelers episodes great stuff, then onto Laguna Beach which is like real life OC on MTv which was good, and that was about it not much; oh and i played my guitar while i was watching tv so that was fun making lots of noise while my sister was studying for her HSC.

Today was our first game of touch football for the Western Reds it was a tough game for everyone being the first game of the season and people not having done any running since last season so our fitness levels were low, but we were able to go to the break at 1-1. Then the other team scored 2 quick tries after the break and we had no reply, a few calls could have gone our way but oh well thats the game the end score was 3-1. The season is young so don't give up on the Reds we will bounce back.

Today i just felt so drained not having my baby around to talk to, she is everything to me and without her i feel miserable. I prayed to God last night that he would give me the strength to get through this and i hope he does because i am struggling not having Alisha in my life. I just talked to her on the satelite phone and she said that is having fun drinking cocktails and doing Latino dancing with her friend.

the count down continues till i get to see my baby again only 8 more days and i can't wait.

1 down 9 to go till i get to see my baby again

Yesterday Alisha and i celebrated our 6 month anniversary together, we both gave each other some awesome presents. She gave me a huge framed pictures of all the sharks players of 2005 which was great and coach carter and any given sunday on dvd which are 2 movies that i like very much. But what i gave her was better, to show how much i love her i gave her a large box of chocolates (which i think every girl likes) and a signle red rose AAAAWWWWW. Also i gave her a ipod shuffle (thnx B) and my baby has the biggest fascination with bon jovi, she has loved him since she was little there has even been talk that she wants to marry bon jovi but i don't think that will ever happen. So i surprised her with his new album which she was very happy to listen to very quickly.

To celebrate this occasion we decided to spend the day in the city so we got on the train and checked into our hotel that we were staying at and went and caught a ferry to manly for lunch which was very nice. We had fish and chips looking out to the beach which was very nice 1 because i was hungry and 2 its very romantic, after we finished our lunch we went for a walk on the beach and got sand all over our feet which was nice kicking sand all over each other was a bad idea. It was starting to get cold so we started walking back to the ferry and then back to Circular Quay, then we went and saw Duece Bigalow European Gigalow which had its moments but not the funniest movie i have seen but still good. Then we went back to our hotel room to watch tv, but then decided the night was young and the pub was right around the corner so went there for a couple of hours and by the time we got back to the room it was close to 130am.

Then there was an early start this morning because Alisha's friend Mel was coming in on her bus from Kempsey at 6, well i got to sleep in Alisha went and got her. Then we got everything ready and went to have breakfast at Mcdonalds and then the toughest time of my life had to happen. Letting go of my baby for 10 days is so hard i miss her so much already, i know she will have fun and bring back some thing good but i want to hold her in my arms. And yes i can admit there were plenty of tears shed on both sides when we said good bye.

I hope these 10 dyas go really fast and i can see my baby again.

hard choices

Well today i got some good news, (i think). My coach called me and said he got all the details about the qld trials he said that they are not unitl FEBUARY, when i thought i had to move at the end of october so that was a big surprise. This could be very good in not going till then so it gives me more time to get everything ready before i leave, the time has gone so fast i thought it would take ages to come around but its all just happened so quickly.

This gives alisha and i more time to get ready like save up some money to buy things and support ourselves when we move up there, hopefully i can work all through the holidays and when im not at tafe and get as much money as i can because it will all help. Also i can finish this year of tafe, when i mentioned the idea of moving to mum ( which i still haven't told her the full story) she wanted me to finish the course before i do anything so i have something to fall back on if football doesn't work. So by finishing this year i can receive my certificate 4 and get a job at a massage clinic or hopefully finish my second year up there and maybe later on go to uni and become a physio. Finally it should give me enough time to get my P's which i think will make alot of people happy, so i will be able to get myslef around to training and other places without relying on my parents or someone else to drive me so that will be good.

But the thing that im always thinking about is this really what God wants me to do, i mean how do you really know its what he wants you to do. I'm always thinking about it and wondering how great an opportunity it will be to be in that environment and learn alot about playing football and life by myself without my parents. But how do you know its what he wants you to do, does he give you a sign saying "do this nathan i want you to". Its so hard to know what is the right decision, i know its going to kill my mum if i move away but its something that i really want to have a go at and see how far i can go and what i need to improve on to make it into the NRL.

On a more happier note my brother asked me if i wanted to play baseball in his team tonight and now that im not moving away till febuary i can, so its going to be so much fun getting dirty and being around those guys again its always alot of fun. Alisha has never been to a baseball game and tonight she saw for the first time the tight pants that we wear and she didn't like what she saw but im sure she will get used to it as the season goes on.

Well im off to bed good night.