tough decisions

About 2 months my football coach offered me the chance to move up to queensland and try out for a team in the queensland cup and hopefuly increase my chances of playing first grade, and last night he needed to know my answer so he could tell the boss up there so they could get stuff ready for me (accomadation). This is something that i have been thinking and praying alot about, there are so many things in my life right now that are going great, tafe is so much fun, alisha and i have been going out for 3 months now and being away from her would drive me crazy. But i made the decision last night that "i would" take the chance and move up to queensland and try out.

This is probably going to be the toughest time in my life, moving away from home, away from friends and family, away from alisha. I know if i work really hard and really want it that i can have a good chance of getting in but there are so many things that could hold me back. Firstly i need to put on some weight, the size i am right now would give me no chance of making an impact so that's something that i need to do before i go. Also tafe if i finish this year then i receive my certificate 4 for swedish massage but i really want to finish the course and go to uni and become a physio, so that is a sacrifice that im going to make if i really want to play football. But my greatest fear about moving away is being away from Alisha for so long, the past 3 months have been the greatest time of my life she is such and awesome girl just seeing her smile makes me the happiest person in the world. Being away from her for that long would drive me insane, there has been talks about she moving up there with me but now that she has started her new job i don't want her to reck her chances of getting a better or permenant job.

It's still a long time till i have to move but if nothing serious happens till then then it looks like im going to queensland. I just hope its what God wants me to do with my life and its the right decision for everyone that is involved.