hard choices

Well today i got some good news, (i think). My coach called me and said he got all the details about the qld trials he said that they are not unitl FEBUARY, when i thought i had to move at the end of october so that was a big surprise. This could be very good in not going till then so it gives me more time to get everything ready before i leave, the time has gone so fast i thought it would take ages to come around but its all just happened so quickly.

This gives alisha and i more time to get ready like save up some money to buy things and support ourselves when we move up there, hopefully i can work all through the holidays and when im not at tafe and get as much money as i can because it will all help. Also i can finish this year of tafe, when i mentioned the idea of moving to mum ( which i still haven't told her the full story) she wanted me to finish the course before i do anything so i have something to fall back on if football doesn't work. So by finishing this year i can receive my certificate 4 and get a job at a massage clinic or hopefully finish my second year up there and maybe later on go to uni and become a physio. Finally it should give me enough time to get my P's which i think will make alot of people happy, so i will be able to get myslef around to training and other places without relying on my parents or someone else to drive me so that will be good.

But the thing that im always thinking about is this really what God wants me to do, i mean how do you really know its what he wants you to do. I'm always thinking about it and wondering how great an opportunity it will be to be in that environment and learn alot about playing football and life by myself without my parents. But how do you know its what he wants you to do, does he give you a sign saying "do this nathan i want you to". Its so hard to know what is the right decision, i know its going to kill my mum if i move away but its something that i really want to have a go at and see how far i can go and what i need to improve on to make it into the NRL.

On a more happier note my brother asked me if i wanted to play baseball in his team tonight and now that im not moving away till febuary i can, so its going to be so much fun getting dirty and being around those guys again its always alot of fun. Alisha has never been to a baseball game and tonight she saw for the first time the tight pants that we wear and she didn't like what she saw but im sure she will get used to it as the season goes on.

Well im off to bed good night.